Nothing nothing nothing

My husband has been feeling pretty crummy lately.  Weird cramps, mood swings, major memory loss, major muscle tightness, restlessness, weight gain, and intense joint pain are just a few of his symptoms.  He’s moved into Hypothyroidism, right?  We thought so and so he went to get his blood drawn today.  You know what the results were?zilch

NO SIGNIFICANT CHANGE!  His numbers dropped by 1 – 2 tenths of a point.  You can’t imagine the way our hearts dropped at the news.  If he feels this crappy with a 2/10 drop in his numbers, we are so scared what it will be like when he goes full Hypo.

I am scared for him and I am so sad because I know I will be absolutely useless to help him in the coming months.

In the mean time, both of us are gaining weight at a steadily scary pace.  He has an excuse.  I am just lazy.

So, what else is going on?  He is so swollen, his eyes don’t look so pronounced these days.  Unfortunately, everyone keeps complimenting him and saying how great he looks.  What they don’t know is that he may look better but it is mostly due to the swelling (he was looking like a skeleton at 5ft 10in and 170 Lbs!) from the prednisone.  No one understands that he is in incredible pain a lot of the time or that if you interrupt his train of thought he will have to completely start his entire process over again or that he can’t see you out of his right eye if you stand just to his side.

So, this is the struggle.  He keeps putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward and I am so very proud of him.  I am so lucky to be married to such a strong and noble man and I send thanks up to the universe every day for him.


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